And were done now.

starting fresh.

Open water.

Can't wait to follow the wind 

and see where it takes me.

Lets try a Fate ride.

Once again

It's a no. 

These are one of those days where i sit outside in the nice weather i've been waiting for for so long. I can just picture it... sitting outside in ten years at my apartment in the city. Sitting on the front stoop steps sipping a hot cup of coffee listening to music watching the city people pass by and go on with their living, or even entering the venue that would be right across the street. And Then i'd also be i-chatting with a friend while painting a picture or sketching. oh yeah and one more thing... i would be wearing a SNUGGY! ... no i am totally just kidding. but that would be intrestingly sweet. 

Okay well here mike wickman is driving into my street... okay he just passed my house. bye mike. okay anway. 

So the sun is slowly setting and my house lights are turning on. The temperature is dropping and i am debating whether based on the weather if i should go inside or stay out. I love the smell of spring. but hah. funny... the last time i checked february was considered winter.... hmm

Life decision.

I will only marry a man who can rock a Fedora well. 

I'm hot and I'm cold.

I'm listening to the Starbucks valentines day soundtrack Cd. Its wonderful. Its mixed with modern and classic music. And so now I'm thinking about valentines day. :(. well. no. actually I'm not that sad. I guess I'm just a bit disappointed because a month ago i thought this might be the first valentines day i would actually spend with someone. But i guess not. Maybe I'll just go see State and Madison that night... I Don't know. Im just so confused with what i want to do right now. I'm hot and I'm cold, I'm yes and I'm no, I'm in and I'm out, I'm up and I'm down. My mind is changing every day... better yet... my mind is changing every hour. I just wish i could maybe have the nerve to pick up the phone and just make a silly little phone call... but everyone knows life is not like the movies. People aren't as understanding. People aren't that nice... Its funny how looking at everyone around, it looks so easy. But i never once has witnessed this situation in an easy way... and I never get my way. I'm not one to complain... but I just don't know what i want now. I don't want anything, yet, i want something. someone explain to me my feelings. You see... this is why i watch lost... it gets my mind off from scrambling these stupid thoughts around. 

beginnings

Somehow my tea turned inta wine

Memoir of our breaths whom intertwine

You really know how to rock a lock

yeah you really know how to rock a lock

carbon flows constant 

keeping minds sane

we only feel chill

and the children are tame

come lie with me

dont lie to me

were only winning this game 

which throws kids meerly insane

i sometimes wish i could go to england over the summer and comeback with an accent... so i could have a good excuse of why i speak in a british accent. 

I am really annoyed of this progress... things shouldn't take this long. and that is why i should give up. but something is keeping my hang by, by a string