When does it start?

It sort of breaks my heart that i've never been in love. I know I'm only in high school, but i just want to experience a high school sweetheart. People say that its not that big of a deal, but it is. To have a friend to hang out with, and you look forward to just simply watching a movie. Or just lying outside looking up at the stars. Everyone i know who is in love is just happy. So what am i missing out on? Curiosity kills and I'm ready to finally start living my life sometime. But i hate the wait. So then what do i do? keep my pace on sitting around waiting for something to happen? because it really doesn't seem as opportunities are close to mine. I don't know how much longer this will take, but any longer i feel like it'll be the end of it for me. I really believe therefore ill just be alone for a while. 

This is a scene

I just had the best night of my summer

it all started out with a movie

That movie transformed into a night full of quoting hilarious lines

Those hilarious lines transformed into facebook status updates in tweets

and then dun dun dun

Ironically at the same time, there is a party that most likely was formed or advertised to shove it in peoples faces that they weren't in the clique of friends anymore.

and then that quote "operation: Im so there its insane!" ironically looked as a "Operation: IM GONNA CRASH YOUR PARTY"

Paranoia is a beast we like to play along with

Well we don't have energy, time, or effort to literally crash a party

but its pretty easy to tweet "If you washed your car today, it was a waste" 

And a funny thing is that I went to jewel with Jess to pick up bananas for my work, and she took a picture of the 5 bunches in my hands. 

ahaha funny thing, it matches with our bitch theme of the day

Pranks with bananas? never heard of it... But why else would you be holding a stack of bananas in your hand? 

mwahahahaha. 

Good thing Karmas a bitch and ended that party early anyways. 

And that early ended party turned into a night of bitch fights over twitter and aim.

I can feel the heat of the summer. 

And i'm loving every single bit of it

Because the truth is

All i had do do was do nothing to form such a crazy-filled-paranoia night. 

I am confident that I did absolutely nothing wrong. :D

all i can say is i love my family so much

and i love she's the man for starting this whole scene

Amazing Video...

http://vimeo.com/6000638

Check it. I love videos like this. 

Passion #1 (The Phantom Of The Opera)

Passion #1

The Phantom of the Opera is my number one comfort. I have been listening to it a lot this week. For some reason it is like my lullaby. It puts me into a calm mood after the worst has occurred. It made me remember the time in my life where I watched it every day. I guess I put fourth my passion into objects because I'm cursed at love.... well at least the phantom of the opera will never disappoint me. Ironically i wore my phantom shirt today. And i also own the phantom bracelet and the book. I think I might read it again someday. I even know all the lyrics to the songs . I've seen the broadway play, and that was one of my happy days. Another good memory that phantom brings me is walking out of choir down the long choir hallway with my old friend Erin. We would split the headphones and listen to the 13 minute song "Down Once More" and sing along theatrically to it. I even remember the first time i watched this movie.I was at my uncles apartment and I started watching it halfway through and i couldn't take my eyes off of it. One of my tattoo ideas (if i ever get a tattoo) is probably an art from from something of the movie. Possibly the rose with the black bow? who knows. :D

a walk to remember

How can a movie be so beautiful.

just watched a walk to remember. 

i love that movie.

it makes me cry. 

titanic too.

im not an emotional person in life

but movies for some reason really spark that trait in me. 

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

future?

Part of me wants to hold on to my childhood

and also live life based on the simple works that make me happy

settle down slowly in nothing too fancy. and just live my youth freely while it lasts

But then the other part of me wants to set up my future to become a successful woman. 

this part of me knows ill keep myself living, but will i be happy in the major workplace? 

i cant decide.

and i have to figure this out soon. 

my college awaits...

askgalskarkjnajha

Figures, im really disappointed in you.

Dear Mrs. ______

The funny thing is,

your just like your mother. 

The way you talk, 

the way you dress,

The way you know what your doing is wrong

And it's a bad habit that keeps poisoning your life

But you do it anyway...

Your cries of self pity are all true

and you should keep crying until you grow up.

We have suffered as a family through the hardships in life,

but we don't repeat mistakes as much as you do. 

Go ahead and rake up people for your team.

You never even liked them anyway,

But its obvious now your desperate,

Our slap in your face made you a better person to them.

Well i'm glad you can be a better person with out us. 

Because we don't want you in our life.

You caused an earthquake that should have never shook. 

But our feet trembled and we grew far apart.

With my mind full of anger, all i can say is

That i'm glad this canyon is between us.

You'll just hear my echos a few miles away.

The echo you wished to see the birth of. 

I know you.

And i know your suffering. 

( Have fun listening to my echos of laughter. 

You'll never get it back. )

Sincerely, 

Me