Days like today where everything is going wrong

And you just want to go home

But when you go home it's just nothing better. 

And Its never just one thing at a time... 

Life can mostly be stably alright

And then suddenly all at once

The magnet of all problems turns itself on. 

Everything is going wrong. 

I only wish there was a solution to make me feel better

But there is no golden answer

To cure all this sadness. 

Tell me something good, please. 

Dear Santa...

The Snakes & Suits Ampersand Blue Hoodie is SO cute and I need a new hoodie for this cold weather. Size wise- I'd like a medium or large. Cozy... mmm

The Muk Luks Women's Lace Back Boots are a favorite of mine because they are so cute and look really warm! and they are black and white so it can match a majority of my outfits. And these are affordable!

The Zuiko Digital ED 12-60mm lens for my Olympus camera. I would be a happy camper with this, because it would enhance my photography :)

This Crosley Archiver record player has built in speakers, and also has a CD player AND a casette player. AND a radio. This is expensive but its for a good cause!

******** I want these Minnetonka Fringe Boots desperately... they are muy expensive too. :( BUT IF I GOT THEM, I REALLY WOULD WEAR THEM EVERY DAY!

More to come

Soon you will be mine

Be Prepared to rock around the christmas tree with this baby! 

Drifting to Dream

And when I dream

I wont wake up

I need to see how this ends

Cause sometimes life is a little bit

Harder

To perfectly mend

But when I'm awake

I trust I can 

Take your hand

And see it clearly

This life was meant to be

Pace

I wonder if the world can run on a slow pace

because its risky taking the big leap

from imagination to reality. 

The biggest dilemma of our lives. 

Susannah

Why is it that this year, so much has happened? 2009  was an unforgettable year. which makes me scared for what's yet to come within this last month. 

To Susannah Kist-

I am praying for you. You were such a great woman. It is incredible how much I look back on all the classes I took from you, and how it helped form me transform into being the person I am today. The first biggest lesson I ever learned for the stage was from you. And I will never forget it. The way you taught, showed me that theatre is fun and all about what YOU as an actor put into it. Just look at how many stars you have trained! And your sweet and caring personality was just the most inspiring trait to learn from. I will never forget your smile and the way you loved all. Thank you for all you have done. God will keep you safe in his arms. 

the obstacle of my life.

I'm scared because I've never been in love before. 

All these years i've been holding back so heartbreak couldn't potentially be the death of me, 

as it once was before. 

But through all these years, you have been in the corner of my mind tangled up in the cobwebs along with memories that have been forgotten since their day. 

And now I'm left with a wide open door 

I am free to take chances

but I can't tell which side the light is shining through. 

Is it worth the risk to walk on the other side? 

because I'm too familiar with the mirages my mind has always made up.

And this is simply the obstacle of my life. 

God, please take my hand and show me what I've been so scared to do.