Expose Me.

There's nothing more that i hate Then a one way road of a conversation. 

What kind of game am i in? is my life just not interesting enough that i must remain the mystery that no one cares to crack? I guess i just don't give the mysterious vibe which draws people in to go all googley-eyed over the wonders of my existence. 

I want to be exposed to a wondering matter. Is that so wrong? 

I am an expert listener with a open armed shoulder and my carry on phrases are first place winners. 

But I'm only seen as a wall to throw your baggage at. Another person who cares but cant compare to the love you left on your shelf. 

Cause she's so perfect. 

So damn perfect. 

And who am i? to hate the fact that she's so damn perfect. 

Because everything will be okay cause 

she's oh my god so perfect. 

Throw your name that you carved in the bark of the tree last week. Just throw it all away. Because today, you are brand new. Today, the past is erased so we can re-live our mistakes. 

Decisions.

"Damned if i do ya, damned if i dont"

It is a phrase that is more than just sex. 

It can also relate to other things...

Such as... friendships?

decisions decisions those "lovely" decisions. 

They're only made for the better. 

Rebound To Your Enemy. It Will Only Make You Distant.

I never repost, but i really liked this entry. because its true.

truth #59

Narcissistic queen, you are killing me. You are really good at apologizing and making people feel bad for you. But I won’t fall for it. I know this path all too well. It’s hard to watch someone you love sink into things that you both used to joke and laugh about.

Its funny... because I ran into a tragedy today where I could put this into my own words. I sometimes don't get how someone can change one moment with strong opinions, and then slowly contradict themselves by turning into the person they used to be. They hate who they used to be. So why be that again? It might just be because that is the most comfortable they can be with themselves. Knowing their life living fake is only to get hand in hand with the important people who will make you seem on a higher level than the others down low, the others you used to  see and then DREAMED that someday, someday that lucky girl you witness get on that bus, taxi, limo, whatever, would be you. So they change to be their so called dream, but then eventually rebound into old news, Sinking to the level of being the target once again. The target of their own aim. 

When will it ever be right?

And your apologies... So planned out. They say practice makes perfect. But sometimes in situations, practices of certain kinds only kill you more. We know

you have a high level degree of apologizing, because its known as your religion, your only constant practice.. But you've bought yourself too many simple 

tickets through. Those words just hit like bricks on a wall now. So whats your next hopeless aim? Because we sure don't pity you.

Taylor Swift...

Taylor swift makes us think fairy tales can come true...

i bet in 100 years there will be a disney princess at disney world

and the character will be princess Taylor Swift.

She's the most real out of any other celebrity out there though. 

so far. 

Airless

Thats okay

I'm fine

I have other _______

Go ahead and be that way

cause my life motto lately is

whatever.

I can be valuable

believe it or not

I don't care about stupid things

and I'm not worthy to argue anymore.

as a hobby like a game

I want to fly airless with the people who return

favors and smiles and gifts of kindness hearts

not a lazy day fallback of wishes and doubts

And I'm just sure glad i have you dear

because your the only thing

i have ever done right. 

Im no Chaser

I just float in pure space

i am shouting for help.

I dont like to say this

but it is only the truth. 

this really sucks.

i know who i am and i know where im supposed to be

it is not here and it is not with these people. 

The intellectual artists with true veiws on life and the world

are the ones who strike me as fancy. 

I dont care about how good your weed is...

i dont care about your kick ass party you threw...

i dont care about your crazy dui

and i dont care about you lazy college days.

It truly is disgusting that people can sink so low onto a level

where their favorite moment of the week

is when they made mac and cheese to fulfill their munchies. 

as an observer of these situations i can tell honestly from my soul 

that i am meant to be good and set

i am meant to fall in love with the boy i once doubted

he who keeps running through my mind day in and day out

and i dont even know you anymore

it hurts to know i let such a beautiful person down

and i dont even know why i didnt give as much effort as i should have...

because i find it rare to find a person who lives and strives hard to reach their goals

and fulfills life by true laughs and smiles. 

the real deal

it is. 

and i was just dumb enough to let it pass on by. 

but those things dont control my life

but i feel like my life is going out of control

changing to a new routine...

i am shouting for help

because i dont know what im going to do

when i have to take the lonely road. 

please help me survive

if only i could hear that comforting voice again. 

it will put me to sleep to dream the beauty of what was once

almost

perfection. 

Genuinely good day

I live for days like i had today

where its nonstop doing something

technology doesn't corrupt our lives

and we live inside the world were in for the moment

not holding back on screaming out car windows  to the boys driving aside

laughter will be my language 

when i live for days like i had today

:)