i am shouting for help.

I dont like to say this

but it is only the truth. 

this really sucks.

i know who i am and i know where im supposed to be

it is not here and it is not with these people. 

The intellectual artists with true veiws on life and the world

are the ones who strike me as fancy. 

I dont care about how good your weed is...

i dont care about your kick ass party you threw...

i dont care about your crazy dui

and i dont care about you lazy college days.

It truly is disgusting that people can sink so low onto a level

where their favorite moment of the week

is when they made mac and cheese to fulfill their munchies. 

as an observer of these situations i can tell honestly from my soul 

that i am meant to be good and set

i am meant to fall in love with the boy i once doubted

he who keeps running through my mind day in and day out

and i dont even know you anymore

it hurts to know i let such a beautiful person down

and i dont even know why i didnt give as much effort as i should have...

because i find it rare to find a person who lives and strives hard to reach their goals

and fulfills life by true laughs and smiles. 

the real deal

it is. 

and i was just dumb enough to let it pass on by. 

but those things dont control my life

but i feel like my life is going out of control

changing to a new routine...

i am shouting for help

because i dont know what im going to do

when i have to take the lonely road. 

please help me survive

if only i could hear that comforting voice again. 

it will put me to sleep to dream the beauty of what was once

almost

perfection.