Tuesday, March 31, 2009


GI 2009
So the group interpretation competition ended with our team getting 8th place. It's not that bad, but i think we deserved better. :/. BUT THATS OKAY. I am perfectly happy with it. And i made so many memories and close relationships. I made new friends, and aquatinted with old friends. It was a fun filled week of long bus rides, free food, crazy cast members, emotions everywhere, sleeping, watching plays ALL DAY, performing, and having awesome conversations. We also ended off the trip by stopping at alexanders, where we grill our own steak. But i decided that i don't like steak very much :/.
So its been since saturday, I came home from school today wishing i was at practice again. It was sad. But then i drank some after school coffee to keep me alive from boredom, and did tons of SCHTUFF. i took pictures, read, painted
 a picture, talked to people, and went places. I didn't know it was possible to do so much in one day... I'm shocked! So here i am now, ending the day blogging because i have figured that i haven't done this in a while! and new update since my last post... my book is on hold now, because i had a great vision and began to write a PLAY. and I'm very excited about it.
Heres a picture that i took today due to my boredom...


Alright so now it's back to finishing the ice storm and lost possibly if I'm still awake. these are the oh happy days. and oh happy nights. 

PS: DID ANYONE SEE THAT STORM TODAY?! it was the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. i literally was struck by the veiw of my backyard, because it was sunny but pouring. The rain was hitting the ground so gracefully, without thunder. and it lasted about five minutes. The sun came out even brighter afterwards and it gave me some sort of feeling i cannot identify. What a wonderful world. 

Sunday, March 15, 2009

I'm writing a B00k. 
S o   m u c h   f o r   b e i n g  s p o n t a n e o u s  ?

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Bright Blue

I feel speechless
I don't know what to say
Or even what to think
I don't know how to feel
Or even how to express. 

I know what I want
But I cant get there
Paint me the colors of a map
i need my inspiration to clash with this life
Everything seems to be falling flat
I'm only paper thin
Hold up the light and see right through
And you still wont see what I'm made of. 
Im changing colors everyday 
and every day the colors fade
Its up to all of you
all of you
To dye me back to bright blue

Monday, March 9, 2009

The (not-so) Cliché Love Poem

I am in love with you.
I always knew I'd love you. 
The second I held you in my hand
My heart skipped a beat.
I knew I'd see you next week,
And so my week tumbled into waiting
Waiting until we must part again. 
I spent my days blind
For I was so eager to see you
to have you
to hold you 
once more 
Until you were mine.
We clicked so passionately 
It makes me smile every time I push your buttons. 
But you are so
And i must figure you out soon
Before the desire fades 
Fades into the antiques we wish we never knew
But I won't give you up.
You're The one who will never leave me. 
Although, One day you will die
But I will remember you always,
And I'll move on and go fourth with something anew
But You,
My lover,
My olympus E-520
This is more than love.
It's passion

alright alright I know that an item cant love me back... But anyways I bought my new baby olympus e-520 on sunday and  fell in love with it, I have been taking pictures of nonsense for the past two hours trying to play with all the settings learning about the camera.Im treating my camera like bronx cause no one has seen it yet, and no one will hold it! tis mine mine mine. :D. I cant wait until I have the time to go and take some awesome photos. Soon enough when i know how to work it like the back of my hand (yeah i never understood that expression either) and  I'm taking it to the city to learn learn learn and take take take pictures (pictures pictures?). Please volunteer to be my model for a photoshoot. I want to incorportate a lot of meaning and art into my picture so we will have a chat and then i'll create an image in my mind and we together will create ART. 

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Black Weekend

This is a very black weekend. 
Friday, my aunt olga passed away. I wish i could've gotten the chance to speak with her about her memories, because she lived through the 20's and the great depression... the 20's is my favorite era of the history of the world. (and we're studying it in american studies right now). Well today is her wake and I think I am going to miss school tomorrow for her funeral. 

And saturday my good friend's best friend passed away after a long struggle to stay alive. He got in an accident with a drunk driver. And he was only about my age. Value life everyone, because he was just too young to pass. 

And the ironic thing I noticed... Whenever someone dies that I know, or I know of... it always Rains.... interesting. 

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

In the Driver's Seat.

As i said before... everything can change in the blink of an eye. 
If you are one who reflects stupid and immature 
And figures your lucky
And that your oh so fine
That you have the nerve to drink and drive...
I will loose all my respect for you.
I won't talk to you.
And I hope it gives you hell.

My friend's best friend was involved in a collision a few days ago
Hit by a drunk driver.
He is in critical condition
Yet the drunk driver walked away with a broken wrist.
This innocent young guy
Is currently in the hospital as we speak. 
His lung collapsed and few times
He went into cardiac arrest
And they had to revive him more than once. 

For just a few minutes ago
He is able to breathe on his own again. 
It's insane how much we give breathing for granted.
Because some people cant. 

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Tragedy of an Angel

What do you do,
When you are madly in love with someone
And everything is set for a perfect life,
But before you can kick it off, 
The one you love has to move across the ocean...
With a 1% chance of ever coming back. 
What do you do with the lost love
That is wanted love. 

And I told her,
Fate makes the wind blow in all crazy directions.
Anything can change in a second.
Right now a boulder could be dropped on this ceiling
Causing us to never walk again...
Every time except for once
We are to love, only to be heartbroken.
One day every thing's gonna fall
But the only thing that matters
Is how you are going to sweep up the pieces.
Will you throw them away, 
Or keep them piled forever.
Will you place it on a shelf
Or will you hold it in your pocket
every where you go. 

Let go,
And let the wind take you where it blows
Because no one knows their future
And nothing is set in stone.
Maybe this is a chance
To realize your microscopic scars
that could be healed by the blurs that whizz around your head. 

If only you can see
That everyone suffers.
And being heartbroken is a true emotion.
You are supposed to be happy dear
Because This first-time tragedy
Leaves all the characters
To die