School is just... not for me.
I can't seem to focus on any homework... it takes me a few days to write a paper cause i keep getting distracted. If ill be bringing my homework downstairs it means i pass the piano, which means i drop my stuff and just start playing piano. Or if i am holding a pen in my hand while writing, i will start to doodle to the side, which makes me flip another notebook page and just draw something. I'll be sitting at the computer typing a paper, but then see that little icon at the corner of my screen called "PHOTOSHOP". i cant keep my cursor off of it. Now... i enjoy writing in this blog, but that is because there is no limitations. Writing a paper is hard if you have to BS two pages of "I went to the museum and i totally was reminded of this and this and this is what i learned". I want to express myself in truth and not two pages of BS. The only time i've ever enjoyed school is when i have a project... and thats because it was always a piece of artwork that i put all of my effort into. Even in my art class... i give more effort than the standards. And its strange because when people are done doing their crappy non-effort project, they come to watch me stare at the computer screen putting all the detail possible into what i do. i just cant leave it not up to par.
So as i sit here in the morning, missing school... this is what i have decided. What i should have been doing was writing my culture project for history... but i got extremely distracted.
And then when your reading this your probably thinking "well what about your future!"
Well.. i don't expect high standards of my future, but i have a dream. All i need is happiness and a great family and friends. And that is my main focus on the future. if im happy... i believe everything will fall into place.