why am i so behind on passion?
In many ways i can find myself staring at a ceiling
not feeling anything but the light hitting my pupils.
I breathe only because they tell me i have to.
I walk because its where i have to go.
I stand there not really giving effort
because i don't need to.
... Well explain to me
Why i had a sudden break through?
Stepping out to run about
It wasn't like me at this time of day.
No one was watching, but i did something for me.
if it weren't for rules and regulations
I would be staring at a ceiling the majority of my days.
But for some reason, i had that extra step that made me want to catch you
To catch you and smile. To feel something new.
Do i need that new feeling? no.
Do i rely on that new feeling? no.
Do i want that new feeling? ... sure
..... Lack of passion.
Is it a disease? Because it scares me sometimes
Wondering if i will end up being okay
Or just regretting.
Regretting the air i have never breathed
Regretting the ground i have never set a foot
Regretting the way staring at lights
has done nothing but make me blind.
Blind to see that if i want to
But... the question is, DO i want to?
... Lack of passion.
Theres only a few things i've found passion for
But for some reason lately
I have been preparing myself for nothing
because i feel like its too late.
But its never too late.
i just want to sleep.
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