nonexistent

All the things I expected, happen to just really be nonexistent. incredibly non.ex.is.tent. 

And watching them all take advantage at what's handed to them on a gold and silver platter

is just painful to watch.

Now don't think differently... i am definitely a happy camper with a great life...

But there's just that one thing digging under my skin every day. 

and I don't know the reason why. 

I don't know the effing reason why. 

I took the walk of regret today... but i dont know what  i was regretting...

it was like the walk of being denied on something you thought was growing the opposite way.